I’ve had a lot of difficulty trying to find something to write. It always happens after writing a blog post, I feel a little lost as to what to write next. I start writing up a couple of different drafts, but then lose interest in them – or just lose all motivation to continue writing them.
This was originally going to be a write up of the past year, focusing specifically on the year since my diagnosis. But I feel a bit uninspired writing that piece, as it feels like a summary of almost every personal blog post I’ve made over the past year. It just seemed like I kept repeating myself. Besides, with all that’s happened last year – I can’t say that there’s much to talk about in terms of what I’ve done!
This is not the topic of the post, but I feel like that this is something I should mention. There’s been a lot going on in the autism community, I’ve been reluctant to address some of the things that have happened. There have been days where I’ve had to stay away from my autism-focused Twitter account because the constant updates have been depressing and frustrating. I don’t want to write about something that distresses me, so I intend not to.Continue reading
I know I’ve written a blog post about my special interest of Queen, but this time around I’m writing about another special interest – one that has had an impact on my life quite recently.
I’ve loved history for as long as I can remember. I grew up fascinated at almost everything I learned about history in primary and secondary school – though I always felt a bit ill when being taught crime and punishment. Family trips included the local site of Stonehenge, Avebury, various National Trust houses, the house of Charles Darwin, the house of Winston Churchill and Hever Castle (home to both Anne Boleyn and Anne of Cleves). I loved it so much, that I studied it at degree level! I even wrote a document on autism and history a few months ago.
You could say that history has been my oldest special interest. With it being a broad subject, there is no doubt that my specific historical interests have changed. As I’ve grown older, I’ve come to appreciate modern history. One of my favourite modules at university was European Studies 1789-2001.
As my degree has ended and I am finding myself at a loss of what to do during lockdown (the November lockdown – that is), so I’ve decided to utilise my special interest in history.
I’ve talked before about how volunteering at university has helped improve my mental health. It’s something I miss a lot now that I’m at home, both the community and the events. Luckily with everything going on, there has been a rise in digital volunteering which can be done from home.
Something I’ve also noticed is that my mental health has declined within the last few months, the lockdown has contributed to it quite a bit. It’s getting to the point where I feel low throughout the entire day. I must admit, I’ve not reached out to my friends about it – in fact, it’s almost like I’m too worried of being a burden to them. I don’t want to ruin their good time and vibes by talking about my mental health issues. So instead, I seek a distraction. If I’m thinking about something that I’m doing, I won’t be thinking about my mental health.
At first, I just started researching different aspects of history. I had an urge to continue researching parts of ‘Autism and History’, especially different attitudes to autism through time. While typing away at my laptop, I would have my history books (on the Cold War, Russian Revolution and Europe in the early 1900s) by my side – even if I didn’t use them! I feel that it was a comfort item in that instance.
But within the last two months, I have been working in a volunteer role in my local museum. I had planned on volunteering at local museums for some time, but being at university meant that I wouldn’t be able to volunteer for the amount of time that they required of me. In that respect, I’m quite grateful for the rise in digital volunteering – it is something that I can do from home, in a time that suits me. My role is to research items from the online collections database, which then become part of their social media posts in order to boost engagement. It’s a very basic description of what I do, but it sums it up well.
It’s a lot of fun, as I went to a university in a different county I didn’t get to learn about the history of where I lived – the closest I would get is the odd mention of my home city. But through my volunteer work, I’m getting to learn about the role my local town had in the Civil War and the different stories of witches in my county. I’m starting to learn about the people that used to live in my local area, old businesses that used to run and the stories that can be told.
It took many years for me to try and define what type of history I liked the most. When I was 9 it was the Tudors, at 10/11 it was the Ancient Greeks. At secondary school, I was taught about the World Wars and Vietnam and at A Level, I was captivated by the Cold War. When I first started University, I was convinced that political history was my thing (due to the fact that I was studying History and Politics), but now I feel that I’ve moved more towards Social History. I’m far more interested hearing the stories and finding out about different groups of people during different historical events, rather than researching the results of elections or reading old party manifestos.
I think that’s why volunteering at the museum really appeals to me, there’s so much to learn about the people of where I live and there are lots of stories to learn. I have researched the lives of women accused of witchcraft in my home city, a man who was part of the local archaeological and natural history society who was the editor of a 1960s copy of the ‘Malleus Maleficarum’ and the role a nearby airfield had with the construction of spitfires in the Second World War.
While I mainly focus on creating posts for holidays and awareness days (I’ve written for Halloween and Remembrance Day and I am currently writing for Christmas), I do have information about generic items that have taken my fancy. I tend to write more about my specialties (modern history) but I have started reaching out to historical period outside of my comfort zone – one example being some of the oldest metal objects excavated in Britain, dating back to the Bronze Age.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that there’s no shame in immersing yourself in your special interests, especially in times where you feel like you are struggling. This year has not been a normal year by any means, so now more than ever it has become important to look after yourself. With the entire year being filled with uncertainty, it has not been easy for myself and other autistic people who are reliant on a sense of routine.
If a special interest manages to provide you with a sense of routine and helps keep you going through tough times (as long as it doesn’t harm anyone and cause you or others distress!), then I encourage that you find a way to incorporate that into your daily or weekly routine. It’s important that we all find ways to improve our mental health, and by engaging with my special interests I feel that I can at least take a break from my hectic and unpredictable everyday life.
Ever since my referral for my autism diagnosis in 2018, I have been searching far and wide for some new role models. I was looking for some high-profile autistic personalities to look up to, people who had gone through similar struggles and sensory difficulties but still managed to do spectacular things. I would search through countless lists and usually end up finding a lot of historical figures believed to be autistic (or speculations regarding living people) rather than people with a confirmed diagnosis.Continue reading
Ever since my referral for my autism diagnosis in early 2018 – a few months before I turned 19 – I’ve felt the need to know as much as I possibly can about autism and being autistic.Continue reading
I’ve been working on another document for some time, I’ve been hinting it on previous posts and now I feel like I’m ready to release it into the world.
Of course, I’m apprehensive. I found so many things wrong with the last one I made (my first piece, The Autistic Student) that I was desperate not to make the same mistakes. One main example being, this new one actually has a back page instead of ending abruptly and a table of contents. I made sure to spend a lot more time on this one making sure that it was ready – since this time round, I didn’t have a deadline! I’m well aware that there will still be some bits that I’ve missed, I haven’t been writing in an academic style for several months so bear with me as I get back into the swing of things!
I was inspired to make this one by my degree. I’ve just recently finished a 3 year course in History and Politics, I wanted to combine two of my special interests: History and finding out things about autism.
So, without further ado…
From personal experience, I can tell you that autistic burnout isn’t fun.Continue reading
Gender and autism is a topic that has only really been discussed within the last few decades. For a significant amount of time autism has been portrayed as a ‘boy’s condition’. In 1944, Hans Asperger (not a positive figure in the autism community, I know and apologise) did not report about any girls in his original paper on autism. Despite this, a year beforehand Leo Kanner described three girls out of eleven children in his paper. From this, it is clear to see that girls have been historically underrepresented within the autism community.
This is generally due to a difference in how girls portray their traits. This piece will look into autism and how it impacts girls.